Underprepared n00b

Yesterday I went to my acting class and my teacher asked me "so what did you do this past week to work on your career?" 'Shit.' I am a horrible liar, so I told him the truth. 'I didn't do anything.' I thought 'I can't be the only one who didn't do anything this week,' but apparently I was.

Everyone in the class had done something productive and over half are already in the union. Wow, I am farther behind than I thought. My excuses are just that, but they are a bit valid. The next step I need to take would be printing up my new headshots, but I have absolutely no extra money to do so. Luckily I had my cousin's husband take new shots for me, but now I must narrow down a good one and get it photoshopped. I also need to show it to my acting teacher before I get it printed, but I am so damn scared he'll say it sucks. Which would be good to know beforehand, but no one wants to be told to do it again, and do it better.

I know, I need to stop whining. Just show him the picture and if he says 'no' then show him some more till he finds one he likes. In the mean time, get off my lazy ass and humble myself to get a second job that will help me get closer; faster to printing up new headshots. I am too worried about not having health insurance that I stay in a job I hate and it sucks away a lot of my free daytime to sleeping (b/c I work overnight). If I had any guts and really wanted to make my way in this profession I would quit my job, work everyday as an extra and have another job to make ends meet. That way I'd be making money and also be getting closer to getting SAG vouchers. Ugh! Instability sucks big time! No, wait, being too scared sucks big time. Boo! Somebody kick me in the arse and fire me :)